Clarity
And, all in a moment, clarity is regained.
I have been depressed over the past few days, and now I know why: I have felt like a failure for not being able to control, well, everything.
A short list for the intersted:
The war in Iraq.
War in general.
The administration’s environmental policy.
Most of the administration’s other policies.
My own inability to make myself happy. (Talk about a negative-feedback loop)
My wrist.
Reading this over, I seem like a rather silly creature. Hopefully I’ll do better in the future. For now, all I have to do is sit back and wait for the return of b.
January 13th, 2007 at 1:18 pm
SO very sorry to hear about your wrist. How are u doing now? How painful it must have been! I was traveling and just got back and read our blog. I hope you are doing better now. Of course I do not know if you receive these little notes because they never appear in the comment section of your blog, I hope you do. And if you do, please say so in your next post so I know I am not talking to myself!
I can’t tell you not to be depressed, as I come and go from and to that phase all the time myself. Mostly the reason is -as you perfectly described it- because I can’t control things, many things. In fact we can only control very few things, mostly our reactions. People die of hunger (many did as I typed up this note) of lack of clean water, of simple preventable things. People die in stupid wars which put our children in front of each other without knowing why and how. Global warming has taken away the snow from winter and I can’t bring the colors back to my backyard. What can we do? I try to do the little things I can do and take refuge in knowing that there are people like you who care about these things.
Hope you recover really soon!
July 23rd, 2007 at 7:30 am
Keep fighting…